it's all right

HEY! have you seen this coat? i've only been lusting after in since fall, and now it's onsale. the probelm: in store they have my colour, but not my size, and online they have my size but not my colour (cannot and will not wear bright red). so, i called a KC friend to ask him to look for it there and he was amazing and looked but didn't find it. i called st.louis where my mom will be going tomarrow and they don't have it there. but, as the urban outfitters website tells me, there are 23 urban outfitter stores in california. annnnd almost everyone on my flist lives there (i still love you, kat!).  so, if you happen to see this coat for 50 dollars or less, buy it. i will pay you back, pay for shipping, bake you cookies, name all my children after you and forever be in your debt. i seriously think they might still have it in california, because there is less market for heavy winter coats. 

http://www.kaboodle.com/reviews/pins-needles-through-the-woods-coat
there it is in the colour i like.  i believe i would wear a medium.

this is a rather loserly post, but everything was cancelled today because of snow, so i'll i'm doing is thinking about how warm i could be in this coat.

maaaan i don't think i was meant to be a blogger. i talk to much in real life.

so my tea party was pretty awesome! i took no pictures, which really bums me out, but that's okay. i'm just sad i didn't get a picture of my cake, because it was a TEAPOT. it's like, on my top ten of things i've made in my life. i even made the frosting!  hahahh, amelia has so far gotton me a "sorry i missed your party" present (earrings), a "thank you for accepting 'my sorry i missed your party' present" present (swiss miss) annnd now she says she has a birthday present for me. silly amelia. 

ohmygoodness did anyone else notice the levis commercial went gay? i thought it was odd.

so yeah, i've been sick lately and it's been crap. i've been missing dance, because it's the only thing i can skip unless i'm like on the brink of death.  ohhh but on friday i went to english 101. i kinda wish i'd skipped to 102, but i don't think my writing skillz are up to par. the people in my class are nice, but i sort of feel like i'm from mars or somthing. almost all of them dislike reading intensly, they shop and workout for fun, and their goals in life are to settle down and have a family. i really wanted to say somthing like "my goals are to have as much sex as i can whilst getting addicted to coke and being a rockstar".  i don't think that would have gone over well with my mother-of-three-from-the-burbs-professor.

also, the shining makes a really lousy midnight movie. dramatic tensions doesn't work when everyones falling asleep in uncomfortable seats. but, with that said i really liked. i wish kubrick wasn't dead.

ahh i'm missing torchwood.

<3rain

what's with me and of montreal lately? they're all i listen to. oh! i lost my ipod. i feel so smart. in this one class, basicly what we do is choreograph our dances (i'm doing a dance to neon bible-the arcade fire) so i got stuck so i sat down to listen to the song for a while and then the teacher came over and we tried to talk the dance out then everyone else came over, then we were running out of time so we worked on the group pieces and i think my ipod was left where i had sat down to think it out. i went back to the arts center at like 8 when i realized it was not at home with me, and looked and asked around but no luck. i'm going to ask around tonight at rehearsal. i think the teacher may have picked it up, cos she taught the class after that. i guess i'm not that upset. i've wanted a big girl ipod for a while now, and i'm going to be working like crazy next semester. still, this is not ideal.

i had finals this morning! 7:30 in the fucking morning! i think i did okay. i got an A+ on my last paper, which is nice. he got on me for stupid stuff though, he contradicted his own quote. whatever, obviously it doesn't matter that much. 

annnd i'm sending out my christmas cards today! they're actually pretty cool this year, i found this scrapbook paper and origami paper and this website with paper snowflake patterns and i threw it all together and it turned out pretty neat. 

i'm feeling pretty christmassy now. school is over, one show is over, and one is almost over. i watched a charlie brown christmas the other day. i love that movie so much, it makes me all warm and fuzzy inside. i did some christmas shopping yesterday, i brought in a few things to ATC and they're selling them for like 70 bucks! that's my record, and it was the guy that hates me. anyway, i bought ivey a giftcard for there because she loves shopping there but never has any money, and maddie a giftcard for urban because that's what she told me she was getting me. she's a silly person. OH! and at brits, there was a doctor who advent calendar! hahaha, i left bailey a really weird message about it and texted my mommy. i'm going to buy it tonight during my dinner break. it's gonna be AMAZING.

now i'm gonna clean my room cos ivey is coming over tomorrow and we will make *things* and then i go to dance at four and do ballet the pointe then and hour break and then 3 hours of rehearsal. haaaaaaaate this show.

<3rain

so apparently panda is happy living as a diabetic, blind, black-nailed hamster. she's tougher then i thought, but with these issues there really has to be a limit. 

i noticed some interesting things walking around campus today.

1. when you put a lot of work into your mohawk, it's pretty damn awesome.
2. when you have a nasty greasy faux-hawk it looks pretty damn bad.
3. when your jeans are just too damn small, it pushes your butt out to the side when you walk, which looks super weird.
4. when you work at miltons, that apparently gives you the right to be a little bitch.

in other news, i have to write this journal from my notes about my theater class and basically surmise the whole semester. it's due thursday. i'm still writing about august. hahhaha.  i really don't care anymore. it's like, shit, it's the end. thursday is the last class and the final is next thursday and i'm just so done with this. it's been fun, yeah, but it's just not there on my list of priorities. 

plus, this week is tech week for snow queen and i'm doing secret life of girls at a bunch of middle schools, so i have a bunch of other things to worry about. except, i don't really care about those things either. i hate both of the shows, and i hate my part in both of the shows. but whatever, in a few weeks i'll have winter break and maybe this apathetic phase will be over.

i really am being apathetic lately. i really love christmas like a lot, but i'm so not excited right now. all i do now is worry, but not the kind of worry that leads you to do something productive, the kind of worry that makes you sleep all day to get away from the worry.

this is probably the start of my seasonal depression. lovely.

<3rain

i want to post about art brut, but the pictures are not uploading so i will post about panda.

panda is dying. i think she is diabetic . she and nico are going through a bottle of water in two days, and i only see panda drinking. the place where panda pees is attracting fruit flies, so it's got to be sweet. and she's blind in both eyes. her nails are turning dark brown.
i got her last january. it was the day i was supposed to have my birthday party. to be brief, i ended up sobbing about how nobody loved me. so my mom got me panda. i had seen her in the pet store before and she was the fattest, meanest looking dwarf hamster i had seen, and she looked like a panda. i loved her. after a while i thought panda was going crazy with loneliness, so we found somebody whose dalmation dwarf hamsters had babies and got nico. panda and nico didn't get along. panda, being the fattest, meanest dwarf hamster around promptly started bullying nico, who was about half the size of my pinkie. for a long time they were fine with each other. nico grew up, panda got mellow. panda has been sick for a few months now, if the fruit flies are any hint. nico beats up on panda every once and a while, but mostly because i take the wheel out at night and she has so much energy.

i suppose i could spend lots and lots of money at a vets and help panda for a little while, but it doesn't seem worth. she's about a year old now, that's pretty much how long hamsters live. she's had a nice life. i do love her a lot.  

her favourite foods are apples and sunflower seeds. she likes to sleep in her wheel. she likes to crawl in my hair.